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Trying to Unscramble This World That is Ours

1/16/05 07:53 pm

The first week of school is over... and here are my reports...

Acting Class is tons of fun with Judy. We are doing lots of excersizes from Augusto Boal's works. Friday we did a collaborative project based on MLK's speach....

GLBT Lit ROCKS! We get credit just for being part of spectrum and she cooks us breakfast and coffee and stuff on thursdays. Im hoping to get laid from this class LOL

We havent had diction and dialects yet because Stan is in NY

Stage Combat is interesting.... the first day was scary... the teacher kept talking about how politics arent important, but violence is....
but the second day was fun... we played a lot of trust games etc...OHHHH and so the teacher takes role, then i totally feel myself getting my period... so i slipped out to deal with it and i get back in the room and everyone is laughing hardcore... and no one told me what ws going on... so after class rachael tells me that the teacher asked where i was and Rob said... maybe she is plugging her meter.... LOLOL

Sexuality in america is going to be cool... morgan and michael are in that class.. and i had a nice convo with morgan. The teacher is funny as hell....the weird part was that she wanted us to identify ourselves sexually and no one answered... she was like... who thinks they are hopelessly hetero.... and we were like... what do you mean by that??? She kept talking about how she is an academic who hates dates and reading and she teaches history of sexuality, but she is married and prude... it was just weird.

I havent had voice yet, and i just realized i wont have it tomorrow either....

We have no theatre classes monday or tuesday because some people are at the kctfs of whatever

what else.....

spectrum went well....I AM GOING TO THE MIDWEST GLBTAQ COLLEGE CONFERENCE in february ... the weekend of the 20th...YAY

friday night i went to yia yia's with leah and brian and jordan... it was fun, and a whole bunch of people ended up coming back here.....

leah was all like... we should cuddle sometime... and i was like....mmmmm.....uhuh... yeah... for sure...
GAH.....

so, i got REALLY REALLY drunk, and high....
Ive never been so drunk i thought i was going to throw up before....then.... we had a splendiferous round of ive never...

the next morning we had the spectrum exec meeting at erins house, which is really nice and she has the coolest loudest cat...
then last night brian jordan and I went to southpointe and ran into Emily and Katie ... we hung out for a long time in barnes and nobles then went to blockbuster and home....

today was vagina monologues rehearsal, which was good.... i got a lot of knitting done... im in the I was 12 monologue and im singing something from into the woods... which is..... an... interesting choice.

tonight leah said she was going to hang out with me... but shes NOT because she is eating with her ex.... which i dont even want to talk about...

so im chillin and watching desperate housewives and thinking about tomorrow... which is MLK day... when i have to introduce the chancelor and sign it, GAH....

so...im off now... oh.. and if your reading this and you think i might be mad at you... i am... actually

1/10/05 10:59 am

and so it begins

1/10/05 10:59 am

THE AMAZINGLY UNTITLED MUSIC MAJOR SURVEY
When did you decide to pursue music?I dont think i ever decided it, i feel like it decided me. I knew it was what i wanted to do very very young.
Were you a theatre/choir/band geek in high school?musical theatre rat...
Were you a "star" music kid in high school?i was
When did you start taking private lessons?7 maybe
Was your first teacher a total quack or a total genius?QUACK, and shes still a quack going around emotionally abusing little kids who want to be actors. Bitch.
How many times have you thought about changing your major since college started?not changing... just adding...
How many times have you thought about transferring to a different school?only when im stressed lol
Do you love or hate your current private teacher?LOVE
Do you love or hate your current college/university?love it
How many hours a week do you practice? (BE HONEST!)meh... not enough
How many hours a week should you practice?atleast an hour a day
How many outside of school music related gigs do you have? (bands/churches/lessons/etc.)32 musicals... lessons etc
What is your favorite music class?last semester it was musical theatre, this semester it will be voice or diction and dialects.
What is your least favorite music class?THEORY
How many of your close friends are non-majors?quite a few actually
How many of those did you know before college/university?none
Have you dated a person in the music dept.?nope
Was it a good idea, or a bad one?
What is your favorite musical moment on stage/in performance?I have to say, as much as i love my musicals... i LOVE voice juries
What is your favorite musical moment off stage/in rehearsal/practice/lesson?when i passed out LOL
What is your favorite "duh" musical moment?singing "lets fall in love"
Have you ever regretted your decision to be a music major?nope
If so, why? If not, why?
Do you sometimes feel like non-majors just don't understand?yes... we have so much we have to do outside of class, its not just our daytime, its our soul and our life
How many times have relatives asked you to perform at family functions?lol... a few
ALL INSTRUMENTS BESIDES PIANO: How much do you hate secondary piano?meh... atleast its not secondary ... something harder
ALL PIANISTS: How much do you hate listening to non-piano majors practice piano?haha
What are you gonna do when you graduate?grad school
How cool is being a music major?it rocks my socks

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

1/2/05 03:48 am

DESCRIBE----------------
[x] The shoes you wore today: TEHE, i never put shoes on today
[x] Your eyes: Sky Blue.
[x] Your fears: exclusion, secrecy, failure

---------------WHAT IS---------------
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: whats going on
[x] Your thoughts first waking up: what time is it? Do I have to get up?
[x] The first feature you notice about the opposite sex: Do they have a sister? LOL.
[x] Your best physical feature: nose, lips.
[x] Your bedtime: When i hear the bed calling me i know its time.
[x] Your best memory: Ben and Jerrys... with patrick... LOLOL.

---------------YOU PREFER---------------
[x] Pepsi or coke: DIET CHERRY COKE
[x] Mcdonalds or Burger King: McDonalds
[x] Single or group dates: Single
[x] Adidas or nike: adidas
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: is this a sexual double entendra
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: what purpose is it serving?

---------------DO YOU---------------
[x] Smoke: Only at New Roads functions.....
[x] Curse: too much
[x] Take a shower everyday: pretty much
[x] Have any crushes: Yup.
[x] Who are they: OH DEAR... ill name firts letters....L, A, J, I
[x] Think you've been in love: yup
[x] Want to go to college: Im IN college
[x] Like high school: I hated it
[x] Want to get married: if its legal
[x] Type with your fingers on the right keys: for the most part
[x] Believe in yourself: sometimes
[x] Think you're a health freak: every once in a while, but i dont usually go about it in a healthy
fashion
[x] Get along with your parents: When im away from them
[x]Like thunderstorms: they are exciting, but nebraskan storms are scary too

-------IN THE LAST MONTH DID/ HAVE YOU---------------
[x] Gone to the mall: of course
[x] Eaten sushi: once again, of course
[x] Been onstage: of course
[x] Been dumped: No.
[x] Gone skating: No.
[x] Made homemade cookies: brownies.....
[x] Dyed your hair: just my roots
[x] Stolen anything: yes, lol, but its a long story and it was an ethical thing...

---------------HAVE YOU EVER---------------
[x] Flown on a plane: of course, like millions of times
[x] Missed school cuz it was raining: probably.
[x] Told a guy/girl you liked them: Kind of.
[x] Cried during a movie: a lot lately.
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot: No.
[x] Had an imaginary friend: Not that I can think of.
[x] Cut your hair: Many times.
[x] Had a crush on a teacher: RAWR i do right now!
[x] Been caught "doing something": Ya know... i dont think ive been caught
[x] Been called a tease: Most certainly.
[x] Got beat up: sorta...
[x] Been in a fight: sorta
[x] Shoplifted: Yes.

---------------THE FUTURE---------------
[x] Age you hope to be married: who knows.... not young
[x] Number of children: I want twin girls and a gay boy
[x] Describe your dream wedding: With someone I love... and not like...vegas
[x] How do you want to die: PEacefully and OLD
[x] What do you want to be when you grow up: broadway actress, activist, influential
[x] What country would you most like to visit: that i havent visited? mmm...germany i think
---------------NUMBER OF---------------
[x] Drugs taken illegally: 1, just pot, but ive been around a ton
[x] People I could trust with my life: not many, but im working on it
[x] CD's I own: way too many.
[x] Piercings: CLit, Nipples, tongue, and ears
[x] Times my name has been in the newspaper: apprx 15, which includes campus stuff.
[x] Scars on my body: lots, but they build charactor
[x] Things in my past I regret: nothing...

---------------FAVORITES---------------
[x] Shampoo: Well, im obsessed with fructise right now
[x] Color(s): purple and pink and red, but not together
[x] Day/ night: Night
[x] Summer/ winter: winter
[x] Lace/ satin: Satin, all over a naked body...LOL
[x] Cartoon: oh.. um.. im not one for cartoons
[x] Food: sushi or korean BBQ
[x] Movie: a lot
[x] Sport: dancing, Gymnastics and ice skating.

----------------RIGHT NOW---------------
[x] I'm wearing: blue sweats with gems down the side, and a light blue top with an R initialed into the top
[x] I’m drinking: Nothing.
[x] I’m thinking: i should check my bank balance
[x] I’m listening: my mother curse about loosing something LOL
---------------IN THE LAST 24 HOURS---------------
[x] Have you cried: i teared a bit watching chorus line
[x] Have you worn jeans: at this time last night.
[x] Have you met someone new online: No.
[x] Have you done laundry: no.
[x] Have you driven a car: no .

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN---------------
[x] Yourself: sometimes.
[x] Your friends: Most certainly.
[x] Santa Claus: well of course.... dude... what good jewitch doesnt
[x] The tooth fairy: i thouroughly did when i was little....
[x] Destiny/fate: to an extent
[x] Ghosts: yes
[x] UFO's: i believe in life on other plantes... i dont know their prefered form of travel
[x] Angels: Yup.
[x] God: (ess)

---------------FRIENDS AND LIFE---------------
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name: yes, my name is sooo laura ashley
[x] Which one of your friends acts like you the most: dont know.
[x] Are you close to any family members: not really
[x] Whats the best feeling in the world: orgasm
[x] Whats the worst feeling in the world: failure
[x] What time is it now: 2:13

1/2/05 12:15 am

At patrick's  request onleftfield721 ,

12 Memories from 2004!

1.  The carry Bady Dance.....in acting class

2. Frick and Frack... and Sean taking their pants off

3. Iowa caucus and the infamous Dean Scream.

4. Patrick getting drunk for the first time

5. My first ******* meeting

6. A specific one night stand

7. Moving into my own house

8. The election

9. Amy and Erin getting together

10. Desperate housewives debut

11. Performing at the Lied center

12. My Hustler Hollywood Sprees this summer

1/1/05 05:26 am

Happy new Year everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its 2005 and i am a roarin to go...
well... actually im quite liking my break, but good stuff
Tonight I went to isabellas...
*crush* lol
WE hung out etc...
her parents were there and they were really really cool people
after the party... we went down to Izzys floor because she was getting ready for bed and i was waiting for my ride... and she pokes her head out of the room and goes
"rachael come here, i need your help... "
and she goes in the room and was like.... i cant get my dress off...
and i need help...but im not wearing anything underneath.. just so you know..
lol so we spent 10 minutes pulling the dress off....
she has such a georgous body..... cellulite and all lol
and she put on pjs and walked me to the door... and she gave me a hug and i SOOO didnt want to go....
CRUSH
so... RESOLUTION TIME
every year i promise i wont make one, and every year i do....
so get ready folks... here it is:
to learn to be myself and celebrate myself and be honest with myself

so, as friends i would like to ask all of you to help me with this. If you think im not being honest ... say something...
I love you all and happy and healthy new year

12/30/04 12:25 am

The year 2004



1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?

Um....
gave in maybe... to others, to myself


2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I dont remember what they were.....

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

My stepsisters boyfriends sister

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Jonny Eliga
Bill Leibowitz

5. What countries did you visit?
America



6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?

Serenity, the ability to say YES to myself


7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

December 28, ___ new roads reunion, December 27, I was scholar of the day, November 2, elections, december 2, sophmore auditions


8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

learning to sort of like myself, learning to cry


9. What was your biggest failure?

none


10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

nothing serious... just...colds and what not

11. What was the best thing you bought?


hehe... youll have to ask

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Mine, all the theatre majors at UNL, Spectrum... friends

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
BUSH

14. Where did most of your money go?

bills

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

reunion, school stuff, life in general

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?

coin operated boy... because its scary

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
wiser? YES. richer? YES! smarter? YES! happier: YES...


18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
sex

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
spending time being self destructive

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent time with family and good friends

21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
patrick, and my mother


22. Did you fall in love in 2004?

No.

23. How many one-night stands?

one

24. What was your favorite TV program?


Desperate Housewives, will and grace

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

nope

26. What was the best book you read?

not sure... ive read A shit ton of books


27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

New musicals from musical theatre class

28. What did you want and get?

I learned a lot about myself


29. What did you want and not get?

tons of sex


30. What was your favorite film of this year?


not sure


31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

19, and.... well


32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Knowing then, what i know now


33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?


Pink

34. What kept you sane?


having my own house

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

kathy najimy

36. What political issue stirred you the most?


gay marriage, the elections


37. Who did you miss?


Lots of people

38. Who was the best new person you met?

My acting teacher

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:

learning to say yes to yourself... learning to love yourself

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Oh, i dont know

12/26/04 04:13 am

Ive Learned

Ive learned that in order to exist, not to mention thrive, we as people must find and learn to believe in who we are.
In order to do this, we must have some type of breakdown where we strip our personality down to what it wants to be. We have to exist with out trying to exist, and this is where we learn to survive.

12/20/04 12:44 am

1. What are your favorite musicals? Gypsy, Chorus Line, Once Upon A Mattress

2. Favorite composers? OH so many.... La Chuisa

3. Musicals you've done and who you played? so many lol 30 or so

4. Shows you would love to one day be in. Gypsy, once upon a mattress, a my name is alice, inside out
5. Parts you would love to one day play. SOOO MANY
6. Opposite gender roles you wish you could play. either part in tick tick boom

7. Favorite musical movie. chorus line

8. Musical movie you cannot wait for. RENT
9. Shows that everyone likes but you just don't care for. The Music Man, Les Mis
11. Shows that move you incredibly. Tick TIck Boom, WIld party

12. Songs that move you incredibly 'Your Daddy's Son' from Ragtime, 30/90, why
13. Musical character/s you most relate to. hairspray..... tracy

14. Songs that you wish could be your theme music. "Defying Gravity" from Wicked
15. Musicals you cannot believe exist. Debbie Does Dallas,
16. Musicals where after you saw or heard them you went "What the hell was that?" cant think of any now
17. Favorite song to audition with or perform. Right now..... i dont say anything from inside out
18, What songs do you want to perform one day? everything!

12/20/04 12:29 am

FIVE things you may not know about my online life are.
1. I have 126 people on my buddy list.
2. Im a facebook addict.
3. I used to write for a popular teen online advice colum.
4. If you look up my name, the thing that comes up first is my national yoyo championchip.
5. I change my SN wayyyy too often.

FIVE things you may not know about where I live are.
1. People have had sex on my desk
2. My favorite place in the whole house is my tiny tiny shower.
3. I desperatly want to sleep in my closet one night.
4. Many of the "art" peices are from shows I have been in, and they all have the show and date on the back
5. There is a built in humidifier that i dont know how to use.

FIVE things you may not know about my time in high school are
1. I went to a very liberal high school that was based on social justice and diversity.
2. I was president of the animal rights club.
3. I talked to the councelor
4. I used to never sign out during lunch
5. My school had chickens that were annoying.

FIVE things you may not know about my core personality are.
1. I over think everything from a smile to a knuckle cracking.
2. i have a high level of empathy, which is good, but causes me to get hurt easily.
3. I crave love, and to be loved
4. I think im starting to maybe possibly slightly like myself sometimes
5. I am attracted to people that are out of the question

FIVE things you may not know about my home life are:
1. I always have the TV on, but i rarely watch it.
2. My books are in alphabetical order
3. I like my house to look untouched, but it never does
4. I always feel like a little girl at home
5. I have an office

FIVE things you may not know that I desperately want are:
1. Love.
2. A cute lil dog that fits in a purse.
3. Success.
4. COmpanionship.
5. Passion.

FIVE things you may not know about what I do in a typical day are.
1. Wake up to my cell phone alarm.
2. Park in the que street garage.
3. Make faces at Todd CUddy through the window in the theatre building.
4. ALWAYS pee before voice class.
5. I ALWAYS read before bed.

FIVE things you may not know that are really important to me.
1. Emotions.
2. my ativan
3. honesty
4. my eyes.
5. my sexuality and identity.
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